An Indian's Tale

It’s not the first time I’m trying you, silently,
It’s not the first time I’m liking you, silently,
This wait is going since universe my dear,
It’s not the first time I’m loving you, silently.
It’s not the first time my eyes are following you, silently,
It’s not the first time my mind is thinking you, silently,
This thought is going since earth my dear,
It’s not the first time I’m dying for you, silently.
My love will tingle in your heart silently,
My memories will sting to your mind silently,
I’m quite sure one day you will miss me my dear,
My smile will be on your lips, one day, silently.

Does the time have come to say that to you?
Does the time have come to see through you?
Does the time have come to walk into you?
My dear, does the time have come to say, I love you?
What I was tryin’ since earth for you?
What I was thinkin’ since universe for you?
What I was dreamin’ since life for you?
Does the time have come to show all the emotions to you?
Before I lost you like I’ve lost everythin’,
Before I fall again in the cruel hands of drainin’,
Before I loose again by the fate and somethin’,
Does the time have come to let you know what I feel for you?

Like in autumn leaves fall from trees,
As my heart is trying to fall, on sleeves.
Like in autumn trees are left shattered and alone,
As my heart is feeling dejected and lone.
Like in autumn paths are filled with many crushed leaves,
As my heart is filled with many but sweet memories.
Like in autumn trees are left waiting till spring,
As my heart is waiting for anyone for joy bringing.
Like in autumn leaves are left for blooming again,
As my heart is beating to start the life again.

I’m sorry for all the things which have hurt you,
I’m sorry for all the actions which were against you.
I know what you have done for me mums,
I’m sorry for all the words which were blown at you.
I love you mums; love you more than my life,
After my father, I swear I’ll give you every joy.
I’ll look after you; will do everything for you,
I’ll bring your lovely smile back to you.
Please pray for me as you have always did,
I need them as I have always needed,
One thing or other or everything just from you.
I love you mums, I love you.
As you are not here I miss you like anything,
I want to hug you to keep confidence in me,
I want to kiss your forehead to keep your love in me,
I want many things now mums because there s nothing without you; in me.

All things have gone wrong till now,
All alone I'm dying not even a single soul to cry on my corpse now,
I wonder if nyou know that I'm dead,
My dear my funeral is going on,please do come now.
After I'm up in hell,if there even I get an entry,
Please do remember me,once,if not now,
I'll try to be a good person like you,
Let me come again,give me a chance now.
I know I'm bad in everything I do and did,
But please lend me a hand plz try now,
Get me out of here,its more painful than death,
As I'm dying dailyhere, please help me daer,kill me once again now.
Let me go free, merge into your soul,
Let me be you,for which I've tried enormous times now,
As I'm up here I feel what I've missed
If I ever get a chance again don't make me your friend,
Let me bve your slave doing your work,when, if not now.
Please it's my will after my death rituals,
Dually signed by me,in my every sense,in presence of every soul NOW